waiting sweetheart, just waiting

Wonder lust. I've got it bad. In fact it's chronic. For years I've yearned, gone, and exploded the budget on different adventures. Tetons, Yellowstone, Colorado, New Mexico, Grand Canyon, Texas, outer banks, mountains.... always wanting my next fix. Even going so far as finding a job in Alaska. Have you ever felt like you just don't "fit" where you are? You were made to see the corners of the world, explore every nook and cranny, show your kids where the mastodons roamed in Montana 3 million years ago? That's how I feel and I don't think it's a mistake.

But, God being who HE IS, has restricted me. In fact it's the only restriction I'd obey, my hubby. If it were anyone else in the world I'd be long gone. But here I am, in my small town, without a mountain within 2 hours of me. But there is a plan. Oh how I love a good plan. I just don't know what the plan entails, I just know there is one. Right now it involved me being quite in my soul and appreciating my life.

My mom said something that made me hopeful yesterday - she probably won't even remember :) We were talking of our joy and excitement about Sarah Palin and my mom said: "That woman just kept doing the next thing in front of her". Sarah didn't clamber for the top of the heap she just filled the space that was created for her. First being a mom, PTA, mayor, Governor, and now VP. So taking my mom and Sarah into account, I am just going to keep filling the need my world has for me. Right now it's not super exciting. I am home... A LOT. I mentor my children, invest in my friendships that I adore, clean my house and wait until God creates a space in his world that only I can fill.

It's cool to be in an adjustment period. It's the first time in my life that I am at a crossroad with no desire to run. I'll wait and be patient and do the next task in front of me and right now that's teaching horseback lessons. Not exciting but that's what the world asks of me right now, so I'll do it with a happy heart and love my lot in life. And wait.....for what God has for me to do next.