Regret is a powerful emotion that I wish I didn't experience. Knowing I am capable of doing better but didn't makes me so mad at myself. The should haves, could haves, and would haves are playing like a non-stop movie sequence in my head preventing me from being proactive and taking charge. But, I am now thinking this will lead to growth because I want more for myself. Authenticity is what I long for along with Godliness. If I can keep from beating myself up for longer than 15 minutes the growth can start.
Sometimes I hesitate to ask for growth because I am afraid that the change will hurt. Praying for it to be as painless as possible. For the sake of accountability I want you to call me on it when I do the following...seriously, I mean it.
1. My naughty tongue, it's always getting me in trouble: profanity, gossip, and not glorifying. I've been convicted and want more for myself.
2. Talking more about my faith. I guard it as if it's extremely personal but I really want to share it. Fear is holding me back.
One of the most beautiful sites in my life has been to observe how others grow in God and hence, in their daily lives. I am constantly amazed and in awe of you and your honest journey. I, too, will pray that your growth remain as painless as possible and if not painless then easily forgettable after the fact, like childbirth! I luv ya sista! God Bless your every sunset!!!!!
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