Have you ever felt like enough is enough - tired of a diet, personal growth, exercise, relationship talk, etc. Like you need to retreat and get away from it all because I'm losing myself in the process? That's where I am today - sick of it. I'm tired of trying to be a better person, tried of growth, tired of sweet tender and mild me. It's not that I want to go on a tirade, I just feel diluted by many different philosophy's.
I admire so much in other people and try to adopt it for myself but now I've arrive at the "I don't give a damn" portion of the week. I don't want to copy cat any more. I want to be ME in all situations, firm in beliefs, authentic me.... but at the same time I don't want to be inflexible but accepting and loving but still me without sacrificing.
For for the next hour I am going to chuck the stuff that irritates me and just thoughtfully ponder what I mean. A little scary, huh? Almost makes you glad you're not around me right now.....
I LOVE that you have the IDGAD portion of your week! Now I feel as though I should have one of those! You're my hero! The struggle lies in trying to be all things crammed into one body, instead of being in the ONE true God in all things in our lives. You know that, but the temptation is always in our faces. The temptation is there to want to be like so-and-so because they make it look so good and easy then feel like you've failed in some respect because it doesn't look the same in our lives. We each possess that quality in ourselves that God has built into us before we were born and it is unique to us and fits like our favorite old raggedy tennis shoes that doesn't fit anyone else. Remaining open to God's direction in our lives gives us the opportunity to wear those shoes into the mission field He so chooses. Wow, that was preachy! I love ya!
ReplyDeleteglad to see i made the cut.
ReplyDeletei love you babe. your writing is pure and unfiltered. i love it.
your hubby,