Last month I did something I really wasn't wild about but I went ahead and did it on faith. Expecting my reward in the future (very distant, pearly-white gates future). But no, God knows my short attention span and decided to let me have the gift now.
It came from the LEAST likely of places, from the most unusual person. So crazy unusual that I didn't believe it. I haven't seen this person in 10 years, we weren't ever friends, we weren't even on a first name basis, our paths never crossed, she was a friend of a friend of a friend. And then all of a sudden she answers a spirit nudging and blesses me. Mind you this gift isn't a cheesy handmade decoupage card or a box of nasty chocolates. It is HUGE, REALLY, REALLY extravagant and totally unforeseen.
Yesterday I thought the gift was the extravagant gift it's self . Today I am more in awe of how much I am loved, cared and provided for through avenues that can't be explained.
This year has been an intense lesson accepting God's timing. It's NEVER ever early. Rarely on time. But skidding on two wheels in a completely different vehicle, running in on fumes just before all my hope is lost and not one nano second before.
What I've learned so far:
1. It's okay not to be or expect perfection. Whoever told me life is with out difficultly LIED. Imperfection makes me human, it makes me compassionate to others, it makes me love with out expectations. The trick is not to become bitter.
2. Just because I want it doesn't make it good. God's desire for me is perfect, my desires are flawed. The sad fact is I don't make wise, long term, well thought out plans. God does, that's his job not mine.
3. My job is to be content in my discontentment. It's hard. I'm working on keeping OCD brain activity in check. I haven't quite got this all together yet.
4. I can't fight my battles solo. I want to but I don't have all the skills, ability, or persistence. So I ask the one who can. And there we go back to God's perfect timing.
Anyway
It's been 10 years
She gives her gift to me through another person on Monday
I see her today by 'accident' (if there are such things)
Are you being worked on, worked over, or having a complete overhaul? Tell me, I like to know I'm not alone.
For most days I feel as though I'm on the new reality tv show "pimp my life"! I am always humbled and honored by the constant provision God sees to give me daily. I am trying to not question what's gonna happen when......what if I run out of....... what if..... I'm trying to just be patient, prayerful... I love ya girl and hope you're enjoying you're gift. You deserve it, whatever it is. God Bless!
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