Peace be with you

My favorite emotion/feeling is peace. Not having a single worry, not because there aren't things I worry about but because, I refuse to carry worry, control, and anxiety around like a fanny pack strapped to my butt.

It sounds so simplistic, so abstract, but it was a crazy hard battle to get to peace. Anger, desperation, asking all the wrong questions all for the better part of a year. Hindsight being as it is, the fight was worth it. To feel free and peaceful even if I didn't get what I wanted the reward is better than what I asked for in the beginning.

Mental note: relax, don't live under the delusion of control, don't rush. Don't rush anything. God can use me if I'm not fighting for control. It's a little hard for him to use me while I am throwing a hissy fit.

Hissy fit over expecting great things to come.